Saturday, June 30, 2018


MY GRANDAUGHTER’S BIRTHDAY PRESENT

The Old Rusty Nail
AN E-JOURNAL FOR OLD PEOPLE

Russell Burton, an Old Person


My granddaughter lives about 11 hours by car north of where I live.  So, our conversations are by phone.  Her birthday was to be a couple of weeks away so I asked her father what she wanted for her birthday.  A few days passed I received a nice card and note letting me know that she wanted a SRL camera. 

She is a very bright cute 8th grader who is particularly good at playing the saxophone in her school band.  But, her note as with all of my grandchildren’s was not hand written as cursor is no longer taught in schools.  So her note to me was printed using a mixture of capital and small letters.  It was difficult to read and to me showed a form of illiteracy.  Of course that is not true for all of my grandchildren are very smart getting good grades in their schools.

I remember when I was in grammar school especially in the eighth grade cursor was a requirement.  Oh sure we were never able to duplicate the handwriting that was displayed on the classroom walls for us to attempt, still all of us learned to write a script which could be read without much difficulty.  And, it showed to all who read it that it was written by someone who was literate; you know the three r’s reading, writing, and arithmetic. 

I fail to understand why cursor is no longer taught in schools.  Oh I suppose some private schools still teach it but that too is probably rare. 

Back to my granddaughter’s gift; I soon learned that SRL meant Single Reflex Lens with certain adjustments which are important for serious photographers.  All the cameras I have owned have been the ‘point and shoot’ kind and much cheaper than the kind she wanted.  And, I believe this is her first camera.  But she explained in her note to me that she wanted to have photography as her hobby and this kind of camera was important.  I guess playing her saxophone at which she is very good is not considered a hobby.

Of course what could a grandparent do other than go to Costco and look for a SRL camera which I could afford?   But, it was not just what I could afford but what makes sense for a 13 year old girl.  I write makes sense because to me lavishing expensive gifts on children I believe can be detrimental to their perspective regarding their middle class status in life.  You know she could get use to such expensive gifts so that when she grows up her life becomes a disappointment when she may not be able to afford the gifts she enjoyed when she was younger.  Now she will be looking not at a camera but a car.

And, I fell into that trap when I got to Costco and began to look for her camera.  Of course they were all digital which made me recall a lecture I had at Chautauqua a few summers ago.  The lecturer was the man who invented the digital camera.  He is an engineer who worked for Kodak.  He showed us the first photograph which he made from it.  Of course his digital camera was huge with a computer connected to a lens, etc. but the photograph although not great was recognizable.  I think this was back in the 1960s.  Kodak was not interested in his invention for it had a lock on the film industry and his camera did not use film.  Using Moore’s Law, he predicted that such a camera would be commercially available in the late 1980s.  He was absolutely correct to Kodak’s peril. 

Back to my granddaughter’s gift, the cheapest one was $300 which had been discounted to $250.  I tried to understand something about it so I could make a reasonably sound decision.  But as I read what it did and how it worked none of it made any sense to me.  You know instead of film it had a card with a certain capacity which I did not understand.  As I was trying to make sense of any of this a salesman walked up and showed me a $200 camera which had been discounted to $100, a very good buy he noted.  Yes, but it was not a SRL camera.

He then showed me what my downfall became for a day for I enjoy good deals, you know big discounts.  Here was a SRL camera originally priced at $900 discounted to only $500.  It was loaded with all kinds of extras including two lenses.  He noted that this camera could be considered one for professionals.  Perhaps but I know a professional photographer and each of his cameras cost several thousand dollars.  Still, the discount hooked me and the salesman noted that it included a carrying case worth $100.  So I bought it that is at Costco I filled out a card went to the cashier and paid for it on my credit card.  I took the paid slip to the guy who guarded the expensive items all enclosed in a huge wired-walled cage.  Out he came with this huge box.  Now, I was not expecting anything like that but he convinced me when he showed me a picture of the camera on the side of the box.

Needless to say, I immediately began to have regrets regarding my purchase; you know ‘buyer’s remorse’.  Of course what raced through my mind was that I was going against my better judgment regarding giving expensive gifts to a young person.  As I thought about my purchase through out the day and into the night, I decided that I had made a mistake.  So, the next day I returned it.  Costco is very good at returning purchases so as I explained my decision the two women at the counter agreed with me as they looked carefully to see if the seals had been tampered with.  Credit was applied to my card and I walked over to the camera department and once again looked at other SRL cameras. 

Without any hesitation I bought the $250 camera.  Even this price was a bit much so I decided that this gift would include Christmas.  You know not lavishing gifts on young people.

On her birthday I gave her a call through her father.  Oh I am sure she has a Smart Phone but I do not know her number. I got a message on his cell phone so I began awaiting his return phone call to wish my granddaughter a HAPPY BIRTHDAY. The phone rang in the afternoon and it was my granddaughter phoning me on her phone! We chatted for a bit including a Happy Birthday.  She enjoyed the camera already taking it outside to photograph some animals.  It’ fun to make people happy.

In retrospective, I think I understand what had happened regarding my buying her first present.  Of course much of it is a result of this age-gap thing which I guess will always be there when grandparents attempt to relate to their grandchildren.  Certainly the age-gap thing raised its ugly head when I began my adventure in buying her a camera.  Much of it has to do with wanting the best for your grandchild without spoiling her and that is a complicated thought process.  And of course, the big discount of several hundred dollars on that certain camera mudded the water even more.

I guess it all goes back to when I was her age in 1945.  World War II was about to end, which had dominated my understanding of life and money was an important factor for I was working that summer for 50 cents an hour and of course paying $250 for a camera back then would have been unthinkable.  I guess I will carry that baggage with me until I die. 

Written 2/15

Friday, June 1, 2018


WHAT NOBODY TELLS YOU ABOUT TURNING 80

The Old Rusty Nail
AN E-JOURNAL FOR OLD PEOPLE

Russell Burton, an Old Person

This title and idea about aging is stolen from a Web article by Annie Tomlin from Refinery 29 published on 3 March 2015.  It had the age at 30.  Oh my turning 30 for me was very long ago but I remember it like it was yesterday for it came as a shock about this aging thing.  It seemed to me that I was in my 20s forever.  I wanted to be 21 for obvious reasons and it seemed like I could never reach that age.  Suddenly, now I was 30.  I have explained to many people that that birthday was the one I remember as the most traumatic.

I write that 30 was a tough age for me but I must admit that 80 is right up there as an eye opener. In some ways reaching these ages are similar for when I hit 80, like I explained when I reached 30 it was a shock to me.  It seemed I had been in my 70s forever and feeling like I was in my 50s.  I kept asking myself what is this old age all about?

The article I am referring does not describe my trauma when I turned 30 and it applied mostly to women not men for sure.  It showed the face of one woman and another picture of a woman’s lower face showing off her red lips. As I am a man it was hard to relate to this article but it did give me some good ideas about this 80s thing.

The first grey hairs and face wrinkles were noted as a shock to someone turning 30.  Loss of collagen explained why their body skin in certain areas begins to wrinkle.  Of course all of this happens big time a half century later when you reach 80.  Wow, did I just note that it has been half a century since I turned 30. As noted in the article, finding these body changes were called ‘self discovery’ which of course is really telling when you reach 80.  Thinking now about self discovery at my age includes, poor balance, sometimes falling flat on my face when walking, a mild drop foot, aches and pains all of the time, white hair not grey hair, and more wrinkles especially in my lower body, you know from loss of collagen.

The article notes that at 30 a person knows who you are, starting to make serious strides in one’s career, and generally kicking ass.   This kicking ass thing I don’t understand but of course our primary careers are now long gone but we certainly know who we are.  If you don’t know who you are at 80 you will never know.  I write primary careers are long gone which is true but for me and others we still manage to do things each day which we could call a career – well calling it a career is stretching it a bit.

In my retirement I have taken up some serious hobbies like I am sure most everyone has when a person has lots of time on their hands.  For me it was painting acrylics and watercolors, doing some stained glass, cooking, some cabinet building and remodeling my condo, and now my interest is in writing as I have noted before.  I was able to sell a few paintings and stained glass works but my writing financial status has been less successful.  Oh I wrote a novel and have sold a few of my e-books.  But, now my ‘agent’ has notified me that a screen writer is looking at my novel.  I guess that means some thoughts of it becoming a movie.  I am supposed to hear a couple of weeks from now regarding her decision.  Hey by the time this article is printed, my name might be up in lights. (No that never happened for it is now 2018)

I note when this article is published on my web site for I have many more written before I get to this one.  Writing these things is fun for me so I write many more than I can publish at the rate of one each month.  I guess the logical answer is to publish more than one a month but then I would begin to feel some pressure that I have to sit down and write.  At my age, I do not want to feel any pressure.  Oh I can always juggle my articles to appear when they would be most appropriate.   

This article notes that growing old is a good thing.  Well at age 30 I guess that could be said with some truth.  But like most everything a person can get too much of a good thing.  I will note that growing old is one of those things.  In a way it is a lot like eating too much candy and getting sick, old age is full of many fun memories which could only have happened if a life is lived.  And like candy, too much can make someone sick and old age has a way of making people so sick they die from it.

Dental changes were noted when reaching 30.  Oh, I guess I had a few dental problems at that age but I don’t remember them.  Of course dental problems occur at a faster rate as a person grows older.  I guess we all have crowns on some teeth and for many false teeth and now implanted teeth.  I write for many because when I was about to have some serious surgery a couple of years ago, my anesthesiologist was shocked to find out that I did not have a bridge or a mouth full of false teeth.  She also noted that I did not look like I was 80 years old which was great news for this suggested to me that I had a chance of coming out of this surgery alive!

I think that letting people know that they are aging when they are 30 is a good thing for a person should realize that fact throughout their entire life.  Now, I don’t mean to dwell on growing older but realize that decisions during your life are important because some depend on age.  And, age is something that can not be recalled like wanting to start over because I didn’t do the right thing back then.

For me this came to my attention when I was addressing a few freshman veterinary students during our 50th anniversary of our graduation in 1956 from the University of California at Davis Veterinary School.   Obviously this would have been in 2006 after I had been retired for some six years.  Each class member who could attend (about half of the members of my class were dead) gave a brief statement to those few freshman students who were ‘required’ to attend.  As I looked at those young faces my mind raced back to when we had been freshmen full of idealistic expectations regarding our future for we had been selected to our freshman class as one out of ten who had applied.

I suppose I gave them the best advice they received that day for I simply said, “Don’t let your life get away from you.  Live it each day for when you look back on it like we are doing today, our career in veterinary medicine began just like it was yesterday and suddenly it is gone and it can’t be restarted.”

Now, what got my attention with this article about growing old at 30 is that aging is a physiologic factor that is a sure thing at all ages.  It all starts when a person is born.  Immediately, age begins its relentless march and will not quit until a person dies.  Yes, when that happens age has finally been conquered but at a serious price.

Written 2012